It is December, and we must be brave.
The ambulance’s rose of light
blooming against the window.
Its single siren-cry: *Help me.*
A silk-red shadow moving like water
through the orchard of her thigh.
Her, come—in the green night, a lion.
I sleep her bees with my mouth of smoke,
dip honey with my hands sweetened
on the dark and hive of her breast.
Out of the eater I eat. Meaning,
*She is mine, colony.*
The things I know aren’t always easy:
I’m the only Native American
on the 8th floor of this hotel or any,
looking out any window
of a turn-of-the-century building
in Manhattan. *Manhattan* is
a Lenape word.
Even a watch must be wound.
How can a century or a heart turn
if nobody asks, *Where have all*
*the natives gone?*
If you are where you are, then where
are those who are not here? Not here.
Which is why in this city I have
many lovers. All my loves
are reparations loves.
What is loneliness if not unimaginable
light and measured in lumens—
an electric bill which must be paid,
a taxi cab floating across three lanes
with its lamp lit, gold in wanting.
At 2 a.m. everyone in New York City
is empty and asking for someone.
Again, the siren’s same wide note:
*Help me.* Meaning, *I have a gift*
*and it is my body,* made two-handed
of gods and bronze.
She says, *You make me feel*
*like lightning.* I say, *I don’t ever*
*want to make you feel that white.*
It’s too late—I can’t stop seeing
her bones. I’m counting the carpals,
metacarpals of her hand
when she is inside me.
One bone, the lunate bone, is named
for its crescent outline, lunatus, luna.
Some nights she rises like that in me,
like trouble—a slow, luminous, flux.
The moon beckons the lonely
coyote wandering West 29th Street
by offering its long wrist of light.
The coyote answers by lifting its head
and crying stars.
Somewhere far from New York City,
an American drone finds then loves
a body—the glowing nectar it seeks
through great darkness—makes
a candle-hour of it, and burns
gently along it, like American touch,
an unbearable heat.
The siren song returns in me,
I sing it to her throat: Am I
what I love? Is this the glittering world
I’ve been begging for?